seriously, something is missing

I know that I have never been the smartest,
I am not even born smart

But sheer determination, hardwork, samurai spirit (and luck) have always pulled me through and lifted me up.

The problem is, I think I've lost some of them now.

Admittedly, I have often reached a bifurcation point:
- to give up and try finding a greener pasture out there
- to stay put, stagger on and ready to accept all the consequences that may come on this road that I've chosen, even failure

It's like computing the probability exp(-(c(y)-c(x))/T) in Simulated Annealing

Currently I am still at the second option so wish me luck.