Pretty much things are done today. I was surprised myself, knowing that almost all errands that I planned for were accomplished.
Started the day at 7 am, when I woke up and decided to go for a small jog. So off I went to Toa Payoh Town Park, quite a nice place to spend a morning. And safe also especially for girls, as long as you go at an appropriate time (avoid dark) and appropriate attire (well, I guess this applies anywhere and anytime). It is an open space, not with too-much greeneries where people can hide behind a tree or whatever things pop up when you let your imagination running wild. And a lot of golden-age people perform their (perhaps own version) of tai chi.
I made a round to MRT Station, just to collect TODAY newspaper and then passed by Ya Kun Kaya Toast and decided to have my breakfast there though I've never liked kaya (isn't it too sweet?). It was simply because I wouldn't say no to an aircon room and a cup of coffee (but isn't it too sweet also, too kopitiam-ish; sweet and condensed-milky?). Anyway, read TODAY while having my cheese toast (no kaya), egg and coffee.
Managed to to something that I was indeed supposed to do at home, was surprised with my progress (yay!!). Left home in the afternoon, had a very quick lunch and then attended a Novena session in Novena Church. Continued my journey to Orchard... hmm what did I do there? Bought something in Paragon then went to City Hall. Paid my credit card bill (not overdue, of course) went to Straits Commercial, bought two canvases and two bottles of varnish. Then went to NLB, borrowed two books. Had dinner at McD while reading a book, continued to Cathedral of Good Shepherd for Sunset Mass. Then went back home.
And now, of course, writing something on my blog (as I mentioned also yesterday). After this, lazing around... yay!! Reading, of course... an Enid Blyton book *ahakhakhakhakhakhak!!!* This helps preventing ageing process, you know...
See you until next posting!! Tomorrow hopefully I can spend the day just painting and enjoying myself.
Have a grrreaaaatttt weekend..!!!!
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Friday, February 24, 2006
Weekend oh Weekend..
Whenever weekend comes, I am filled with excitement and also... dilemma. Oh well, I guess it's a too exaggerated term to use. Anyway, I always have a confusion on how to make full use of the weekend that I am about to have.
Some time last year, I did write about Weekend Misconception.
I am still disturbed sometimes that we have five days to do things for a living and only two days to live.
Like now, weekend is just 23 minutes away (at the time when I write this line down), and I still don't know how to optimize my schedule. And it can be frustrating sometimes (those who know me well know how easily I can get frustrated).
I do have things to do at home, things I hope I can find time to do at home, want to catch some little sports, actually also need to buy something in City area, definitely want to attend Saturday Sunset Mass (preferrably in Cathedral), miss Novena Devotion after more than one month has been absent, miss to browse book around in library or even Borders, want to catch up with friends also actually, want to start a new painting, want to write more in blog and.... actually, honestly I want to just laze around at home also (about which I think I have mentioned few times in this blog and yet... never really realized that).
I cancel an appointment tomorrow. Feel rather bad to my friend who asked me along for this NTU International Alumni Get-Together-Lunch which I agreed upon to register as I feel like reconnect with people, especially some friends who will also go tomorrow. But then, thinking that it's in NTUa (jauhnyaaaaa itu lho), and actually I also have things to do here, the international buffet can't really lure me to take an MRT ride from Toa Payoh to Boon Lay plus a few minute shuttle bus ride.
Hmmmppphh.... confused. I always try not to procrastinate things. Thinking that if I do, I will have a neverending long list of things to do which will be frustrating and only-God-knows when it ends. But then, even that I do not procrastinate, I feel like I always have long list of them...
Huaaa... hopefully tomorrow will be a bright and nice day!! And hopefully I can also do as much in my paintings as I can...
Good night, sleep tight... I am very sleepy now....
Some time last year, I did write about Weekend Misconception.
I am still disturbed sometimes that we have five days to do things for a living and only two days to live.
Like now, weekend is just 23 minutes away (at the time when I write this line down), and I still don't know how to optimize my schedule. And it can be frustrating sometimes (those who know me well know how easily I can get frustrated).
I do have things to do at home, things I hope I can find time to do at home, want to catch some little sports, actually also need to buy something in City area, definitely want to attend Saturday Sunset Mass (preferrably in Cathedral), miss Novena Devotion after more than one month has been absent, miss to browse book around in library or even Borders, want to catch up with friends also actually, want to start a new painting, want to write more in blog and.... actually, honestly I want to just laze around at home also (about which I think I have mentioned few times in this blog and yet... never really realized that).
I cancel an appointment tomorrow. Feel rather bad to my friend who asked me along for this NTU International Alumni Get-Together-Lunch which I agreed upon to register as I feel like reconnect with people, especially some friends who will also go tomorrow. But then, thinking that it's in NTUa (jauhnyaaaaa itu lho), and actually I also have things to do here, the international buffet can't really lure me to take an MRT ride from Toa Payoh to Boon Lay plus a few minute shuttle bus ride.
Hmmmppphh.... confused. I always try not to procrastinate things. Thinking that if I do, I will have a neverending long list of things to do which will be frustrating and only-God-knows when it ends. But then, even that I do not procrastinate, I feel like I always have long list of them...
Huaaa... hopefully tomorrow will be a bright and nice day!! And hopefully I can also do as much in my paintings as I can...
Good night, sleep tight... I am very sleepy now....
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Bosen nyaaa...
Duh ampun... Bosen banget nih. Lagi gak semangat-semangat banget kerja. Reason being, kayaknya dah kelamaan nge-debug dan ngeliatin program, jujur aja mata nih udah berkunang-kunang rasanya.
Dan lagi, besok dan lusa I'll join A*STAR Induction program yang berarti I won't be in office which means I can't continue my work. Sementara menurut gua, thinking process should be a continuous one. Kalo kepotong-potong gitu, nanggung. Nanti Senin mesti "pemanasan otak" lagi. Jadi begitulah sodara-sodara, status mood ku sekarang ini.
Dengerin music juga bosen. Buka-buka internet bosen. Baca e-mail bosen (padahal udah jarang juga akhir-akhir ini). Mau ngajak orang ngobrol di MSN juga muales.
Huhuhu yo wis rasanya gua akan bikin report aja deh. The next most interesting thing to kill the time.
Males juga bayangin besok. I have never been ecstatic about any kind of team building activities. Terkadang permainan-permainan yang dilakukan itu mempermalukan orang which I hate to the core!! I think I am not in the mood and also "age" for those things anymore. And with me becoming more and more antisocial recently, it's just not for me...
I wanted to opt out from this program (I don't even know why am I selected to join) but on the second day there will be A*STAR Introduction in Biopolis which I think will be more interesting and beneficial.
OK lah, I guess I'll start with my report. This month, nothing much to report. What with my 5 days MC, this A*STAR Induction Programme, and February being the shortest month in the year.
PS: Why everytime I try to write in Indonesian I'll get confused in the middle and ended up writing in English instead?
Dan lagi, besok dan lusa I'll join A*STAR Induction program yang berarti I won't be in office which means I can't continue my work. Sementara menurut gua, thinking process should be a continuous one. Kalo kepotong-potong gitu, nanggung. Nanti Senin mesti "pemanasan otak" lagi. Jadi begitulah sodara-sodara, status mood ku sekarang ini.
Dengerin music juga bosen. Buka-buka internet bosen. Baca e-mail bosen (padahal udah jarang juga akhir-akhir ini). Mau ngajak orang ngobrol di MSN juga muales.
Huhuhu yo wis rasanya gua akan bikin report aja deh. The next most interesting thing to kill the time.
Males juga bayangin besok. I have never been ecstatic about any kind of team building activities. Terkadang permainan-permainan yang dilakukan itu mempermalukan orang which I hate to the core!! I think I am not in the mood and also "age" for those things anymore. And with me becoming more and more antisocial recently, it's just not for me...
I wanted to opt out from this program (I don't even know why am I selected to join) but on the second day there will be A*STAR Introduction in Biopolis which I think will be more interesting and beneficial.
OK lah, I guess I'll start with my report. This month, nothing much to report. What with my 5 days MC, this A*STAR Induction Programme, and February being the shortest month in the year.
PS: Why everytime I try to write in Indonesian I'll get confused in the middle and ended up writing in English instead?
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Norak #1
Some people say that one of the heroic principles in life is to do things at the right time, at the right place and in the right way. Which is true, really.
But for me, I would like to add: to put the breakpoint at the right line.
I did today and was sooooooooo ecstatic about it *noraaaaaaaaaaaaakkkk*
I was supposed to incorporate two modules in a (long and complicated) program that my boss has created. Last Friday, I declared (not my boss but only I) a succesful implementation of the first part (after one week trying to figure out how exactly it is to integrate them nicely). Then I started on the second one. It was integrated, the data flow was OK but the result is FAR from expectation. Haiizz, which means algorithm problem. Which means I have to play again with breakpoint and debugging function. Ugh ugh…
After fiddling with it for quite some time, spent half a day for it today, I still had no clue how it went wrong. Then at one fateful moment *duh…* I finally put the breakpoint at the right line, spotted the right indication, made the right change and yaaayyyy it worked!!!! And you know what, it was just a missing negative sign *duh kuadrat*
Picikalipid picikalipid…
Maaf, saya memang norak. Maklum, I am not an accomplished programmer at all. Not even from a Computer Engineering/Science school. Orang Surabaya bilang BoNek.
But for me, I would like to add: to put the breakpoint at the right line.
I did today and was sooooooooo ecstatic about it *noraaaaaaaaaaaaakkkk*
I was supposed to incorporate two modules in a (long and complicated) program that my boss has created. Last Friday, I declared (not my boss but only I) a succesful implementation of the first part (after one week trying to figure out how exactly it is to integrate them nicely). Then I started on the second one. It was integrated, the data flow was OK but the result is FAR from expectation. Haiizz, which means algorithm problem. Which means I have to play again with breakpoint and debugging function. Ugh ugh…
After fiddling with it for quite some time, spent half a day for it today, I still had no clue how it went wrong. Then at one fateful moment *duh…* I finally put the breakpoint at the right line, spotted the right indication, made the right change and yaaayyyy it worked!!!! And you know what, it was just a missing negative sign *duh kuadrat*
Picikalipid picikalipid…
Maaf, saya memang norak. Maklum, I am not an accomplished programmer at all. Not even from a Computer Engineering/Science school. Orang Surabaya bilang BoNek.
Monday, February 20, 2006
What's yours?
Sometimes I wonder what am I doing here, staring at the monitor and trying to solve the problems with ones and zeros. I do enjoy my work, honestly. And debugging some programs can also excite me, giving me the reason to wake up so early to head to office. Nevertheless, I can’t help thinking that I can spend this glorious morning at home and do my paintings.
Remembering when the paint smoothly spread on the welcoming canvas, just like the fresh churned butter on a fresh-from-the-oven slice of bread. Hmmm….
Remembering when the colors blend nicely just like when you stir fresh milk in a cup of freshly-brewed coffee…
(getting sentimental here?)
It is always a mystery when you stare at a blank canvas. How would it turn out to be? What mood will it exude? How will my identity and style be depicted by the lines, strokes and colors? It’s a mystery that you can’t wait to reveal and for me, alas, I have to wait for weekend to continue dissecting that mystery.
The moments I spend with brush on my right hand and palette on my left and a canvas in front of me are those that I cherish. If you think I am exaggerating or if it is “too much”, come to NAFA building level 6 every Sunday morning and you’ll see that at least few people share the same “exaggeration”. We are not professional and we (erm… I) haven’t come out with any exhibitable masterpieces. But hey, who cares?
May be someday (which can be 10 years, 20 years or even more later) I’ll be standing alone in my own studio with a sturdy and reliable easel and a huge palette and an ample supply of paints (Van Gogh’s Artist Colour please, want to upgrade from Daler-Rowney haha =D), nice canvas and with sun rays coming through the window, some classical music behind and painting some scene from Tuscany which (by then) I would have visited.
And perhaps… (well, can’t help wishing) I would already have owned a gallery (personal one will do, I don’t need the commercial one).
That is what I can call A Bliss.
But for now, I just want to say something: “Rhea!! Wake up!!”
Sigh… but dreaming is not a sin, right?
PS: What’s your dream? Please do share =)
Remembering when the paint smoothly spread on the welcoming canvas, just like the fresh churned butter on a fresh-from-the-oven slice of bread. Hmmm….
Remembering when the colors blend nicely just like when you stir fresh milk in a cup of freshly-brewed coffee…
(getting sentimental here?)
It is always a mystery when you stare at a blank canvas. How would it turn out to be? What mood will it exude? How will my identity and style be depicted by the lines, strokes and colors? It’s a mystery that you can’t wait to reveal and for me, alas, I have to wait for weekend to continue dissecting that mystery.
The moments I spend with brush on my right hand and palette on my left and a canvas in front of me are those that I cherish. If you think I am exaggerating or if it is “too much”, come to NAFA building level 6 every Sunday morning and you’ll see that at least few people share the same “exaggeration”. We are not professional and we (erm… I) haven’t come out with any exhibitable masterpieces. But hey, who cares?
May be someday (which can be 10 years, 20 years or even more later) I’ll be standing alone in my own studio with a sturdy and reliable easel and a huge palette and an ample supply of paints (Van Gogh’s Artist Colour please, want to upgrade from Daler-Rowney haha =D), nice canvas and with sun rays coming through the window, some classical music behind and painting some scene from Tuscany which (by then) I would have visited.
And perhaps… (well, can’t help wishing) I would already have owned a gallery (personal one will do, I don’t need the commercial one).
That is what I can call A Bliss.
But for now, I just want to say something: “Rhea!! Wake up!!”
Sigh… but dreaming is not a sin, right?
PS: What’s your dream? Please do share =)
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Not a very pleasant one
(This entry was written on Monday, 6 February 2006. But due to some technical glitches it wasn't posted, and during the days that follow I avoid being in close contact with PC)
Presentation (especially the one with a change in schedule) and sore eyes (a severe one) certainly do not go well together.
But this is the situation that I am currently in right now (that's why I know how bad it affects one's life).
I was supposed to have a presentation (well, my first ever upon joining this company) on 17 February (next week). And the director has conveyed the message and made sure it is clear that he expects an academic presentation, whatever that means.
On 23-30 January, I enjoyed my short break in Jakarta (and finally ate rujak cingur after so long, it's an Eastern Javanese delicacy in case you're wondering and this one was especially brought from Malang by my cousin for my indulgence). Coming back to office on Wednesday - it was still quite as people are still extending their Chinese New Year break - only to know that the presentation (the academic one - what else?) is brought forward to 10 February (this Friday).
Unable to start preparing it immediately (what with my other works to do), I've allocated Friday onwards just to do it and also for something "oral examination kinda thing" which is due on 8th of Feb (the day after tomorrow).
Friday morning, I woke up only to know that my right eye sored. Went to see doctor in NUS, only to hear her saying that it is a serious one, my eye was badly infected and she then made an appointment with an eye specialist in NUH for me. By then, the sore had become more and more unbearable and she gave me an MC.
I had a tearful moment with the specialist. My slit eyes and single-eye lid made his usually long eye examination longer. Once he forced to fold my eye lid back and what I can tell you is that it wasn't a very pleasant experience. And because my eyes were too small, he needed to drop some medicine to dilate my eyes. Very uncomfortable, felt very absurd. He told me I got a bacterial infection.
The weekend was gone through by a swollen right eye, waking up on Saturday only to know that my left eye was also infected (the doctor suggested not to share pillow and towel with anybody, but I just can't quarantine my left eye from the right one, right?), few tearful moments, especially when I applied the eye drop (my whole body shakes for few torturous second.. I'll look like someone who just consumed drugs), skipped my painting class and did it at home instead, and until this morning which I felt my eyes are much better than 2 days ago.
But being in office (i.e. air-conditioned room) for 1 hour had again discouraged me. My eyes became more red and very dry.. I kept on squinting and it made me more difficult for me to prepare my presentation!! Oh no... How? What to do? I am panic now. Will seek more advice when I see the specialist again this afternoon.
OK, gotta do my presentation slides now (heaven helps!!) and in case you're wondering how on earth can I type for so long now, I am at home now (without air con) and have brought all my works back home in case I decide to extend my rest until tomorrow (better than coming with red squinting eyes to the presentation room which will be attended by directors, project leaders, etc??)
PS: Panic to the power of infinity!!!!!
Now is TODAY's entry:
I went to see the specialist again in NUH on Monday, 3 pm only to know that though my bacterial infection has waned, I still have a viral infection which will last for 10 days - 2 weeks!! Luckily, it doesn't hurt as bad as the bacterial one. Still bearable, or at least my eyes had their normal size back. Obviously, he pleaded me to abstain against reading, watching movies, seeing PC's monitor.. avoid them as much as I can. He gave me MC for 4 days. At first he wanted to give a full week MC but I objected it.
With this, my director agreed to postpone my presentation. Phew.. Can't really imagine how to prepare it under this condition.
I couldn't do anything right. Can't read for more than few minutes, only checked my important e-mails (and kept squinting)... All in all, it was boring boring boring!!! So I slept a lot (something that I don't usually do under normal circumstances). I normally can't have a nap how hard I try (contrary to norm?) but luckily they came at ease when I was soooo daaaammnn boooreeeddd..
Today, I ecstatically went to office. Finally... my eyes are already back to ALMOST normal. Still have blur eyesight sometimes... But as long as I don't overstrain, I guess my normal eyesight will be back soon...
Presentation (especially the one with a change in schedule) and sore eyes (a severe one) certainly do not go well together.
But this is the situation that I am currently in right now (that's why I know how bad it affects one's life).
I was supposed to have a presentation (well, my first ever upon joining this company) on 17 February (next week). And the director has conveyed the message and made sure it is clear that he expects an academic presentation, whatever that means.
On 23-30 January, I enjoyed my short break in Jakarta (and finally ate rujak cingur after so long, it's an Eastern Javanese delicacy in case you're wondering and this one was especially brought from Malang by my cousin for my indulgence). Coming back to office on Wednesday - it was still quite as people are still extending their Chinese New Year break - only to know that the presentation (the academic one - what else?) is brought forward to 10 February (this Friday).
Unable to start preparing it immediately (what with my other works to do), I've allocated Friday onwards just to do it and also for something "oral examination kinda thing" which is due on 8th of Feb (the day after tomorrow).
Friday morning, I woke up only to know that my right eye sored. Went to see doctor in NUS, only to hear her saying that it is a serious one, my eye was badly infected and she then made an appointment with an eye specialist in NUH for me. By then, the sore had become more and more unbearable and she gave me an MC.
I had a tearful moment with the specialist. My slit eyes and single-eye lid made his usually long eye examination longer. Once he forced to fold my eye lid back and what I can tell you is that it wasn't a very pleasant experience. And because my eyes were too small, he needed to drop some medicine to dilate my eyes. Very uncomfortable, felt very absurd. He told me I got a bacterial infection.
The weekend was gone through by a swollen right eye, waking up on Saturday only to know that my left eye was also infected (the doctor suggested not to share pillow and towel with anybody, but I just can't quarantine my left eye from the right one, right?), few tearful moments, especially when I applied the eye drop (my whole body shakes for few torturous second.. I'll look like someone who just consumed drugs), skipped my painting class and did it at home instead, and until this morning which I felt my eyes are much better than 2 days ago.
But being in office (i.e. air-conditioned room) for 1 hour had again discouraged me. My eyes became more red and very dry.. I kept on squinting and it made me more difficult for me to prepare my presentation!! Oh no... How? What to do? I am panic now. Will seek more advice when I see the specialist again this afternoon.
OK, gotta do my presentation slides now (heaven helps!!) and in case you're wondering how on earth can I type for so long now, I am at home now (without air con) and have brought all my works back home in case I decide to extend my rest until tomorrow (better than coming with red squinting eyes to the presentation room which will be attended by directors, project leaders, etc??)
PS: Panic to the power of infinity!!!!!
Now is TODAY's entry:
I went to see the specialist again in NUH on Monday, 3 pm only to know that though my bacterial infection has waned, I still have a viral infection which will last for 10 days - 2 weeks!! Luckily, it doesn't hurt as bad as the bacterial one. Still bearable, or at least my eyes had their normal size back. Obviously, he pleaded me to abstain against reading, watching movies, seeing PC's monitor.. avoid them as much as I can. He gave me MC for 4 days. At first he wanted to give a full week MC but I objected it.
With this, my director agreed to postpone my presentation. Phew.. Can't really imagine how to prepare it under this condition.
I couldn't do anything right. Can't read for more than few minutes, only checked my important e-mails (and kept squinting)... All in all, it was boring boring boring!!! So I slept a lot (something that I don't usually do under normal circumstances). I normally can't have a nap how hard I try (contrary to norm?) but luckily they came at ease when I was soooo daaaammnn boooreeeddd..
Today, I ecstatically went to office. Finally... my eyes are already back to ALMOST normal. Still have blur eyesight sometimes... But as long as I don't overstrain, I guess my normal eyesight will be back soon...
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