I just want to do my best

I know I only have this much to offer,
this capacity to absorb things they teach,
this knowledge to precede my study,
this intelligence to get things right,
this saturation limit to stick to homework and study,
lack of brilliance to utter something impressive,
lack of swift to detect faults in lectures,
lack of intuition in solving problems...

But all this while I know,
Giving up is at the bottom list of my dictionary,
Surrender is only for losers,
Determination is the key,
Unlocking my OWN personal paradise,
realm of knowledge, enjoyment and satisfaction

This is not my first struggle
And I have conquered the rest

If this is my next share
Come, I'll take it
Come, I'll do it
Come, I'll finish it

As these are all I have.
Determination, Samurai spirit and faith.

I don't know what the outcome would be.
There is no time to think, no time to ponder.
Just step your feet ahead and continue walking.
As stopping is only for faint-hearted.
And stepping back is only for loser.

I just want to know,
at the end of the day I could say:
I did it. Again.

I don't always expect a triumphant cheers nor victorious crown.
It's my own fear I want to conquer.

I just want to do my best.
This is where I stand, until HE moves me on.