Referring to Flo's comment on my previous post, I guess it is more appropriate if I answer here (erm sekalian curhat kali ya).
Honestly, if I am asked: "Which one do you prefer, working or studying?"
Without hesitating, my answer is to study.
Working might be more relax, but if you have had three years of feeling like a wrong peg in a wrong hole, you get what I mean. You become restless and your mind always wanders around, trying to find a niche to fit in.
Now, at least, I know I am in the right "place" but might not be the right program =).
Hmm but actually the program itself is OK. It's not anyone's fault that I am not really interested in Optimization but have to take it anyway.
So, some are OK, quite enjoyable but some others just torture me. I guess that's normal. The world is not only yours anyway.
I really seldom go out recently that going out would bud guilty feeling within me. It's not good? Staying at home constantly, reading and working and coding can be damn boring at times. But, what to say, c'est la vie.
The maid in this house has even asked me few times "Actually do you sleep? Sometimes when I already woke up you are still wandering around the house"
So. Hopefully I can still stay in sanity.
Flo, do you actually dream about your work? Hahaha I often had to wake up though my sleep was still very little because I dreamt that:
- a friend told me that I missed out some points in my PDE report and in my sleep I tried to convinced myself that her argument is wrong. Even until I woke up I still thought of that
- the TA told me that I did very badly, my report was disappointing and I got the excruciatingly lowest grade in class though I've spent more time than others
- this morning, the velocity and distance function (Eikonal) HAUNTED me.. really... it's crazy. I even felt compelled to start work immediately after woke up THOUGH my bladder almost exploded...
- etc...
Am I still sane?
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Do I actually dream about your work??? Of course, yes, I do, without a single doubt! Isn't it pathetic or what!!!(haizzzz..)
Kadang2 malah not only about the work itself, tapi about my supervisors... :|
Atao kadang2 susah memulai tidur krn kebayang2 kerjaan belon kelar, tapi gue musti bobo sekarang kalo engga besok beler (sorry Rhe, I still don't have your ability to sleep way past midnight n still able to catch the morning lesson). Belakangan malah jadi suka pusing2 kalo udah malem menjelang jam bobo. Haiiizzzz....
Anyway, I always believe that we'll finally reach the end point of our journey, i.e. you and I get our doctorate. It's just HOW the process is to reach that point. That's the "FUN" part. hahahaha.... (tertawa agak ga jelas... =P)
Take care Bu!
Eh sorry, kalimat pertamanya harusnya : Do I actually dream about my work???
Tadi gue copy paste tapi baru ganti "you" sama "I" doang. Yang "your" belon diganti "my". =P
hehe flo, kalo udah subuh gini ngantuk ya pasti ada lah. tapi skrg pas sgp lagi panas2nya enakan kerja malem daripada kerja pagi. iya i know emang ga sehat. akhir2 ini g mulai sering sakit kepala and feeling lethargic.
anyway, in times like this i can only recall what Sr Francesco used to tell us:
"The secret of life is to like what you have to do and not to do what you like"
yah itulah yang bikin g stay awake. sebenernya sih, i prefer to snuggle on my beeeeedddd..
Eh iya euy.. Itu tulisan yg pas menjelang ulangan umum dipajang di papan depan aula emang powerful banget! Belakangan ini juga sering terlintas2 di pikiran gue.
Ah... gue jadi pingin baca buku Fikirnya si Ciko. Pinjem dong kalo pas elo mampir ke NTU. hehe.. =P
lho lu blm pernah baca FIKIR? You have to!!
OK deh ntar kalo g ke NTU g bawain... ingetin g yah =D
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