Sometimes I wonder what am I doing here, staring at the monitor and trying to solve the problems with ones and zeros. I do enjoy my work, honestly. And debugging some programs can also excite me, giving me the reason to wake up so early to head to office. Nevertheless, I can’t help thinking that I can spend this glorious morning at home and do my paintings.
Remembering when the paint smoothly spread on the welcoming canvas, just like the fresh churned butter on a fresh-from-the-oven slice of bread. Hmmm….
Remembering when the colors blend nicely just like when you stir fresh milk in a cup of freshly-brewed coffee…
(getting sentimental here?)
It is always a mystery when you stare at a blank canvas. How would it turn out to be? What mood will it exude? How will my identity and style be depicted by the lines, strokes and colors? It’s a mystery that you can’t wait to reveal and for me, alas, I have to wait for weekend to continue dissecting that mystery.
The moments I spend with brush on my right hand and palette on my left and a canvas in front of me are those that I cherish. If you think I am exaggerating or if it is “too much”, come to NAFA building level 6 every Sunday morning and you’ll see that at least few people share the same “exaggeration”. We are not professional and we (erm… I) haven’t come out with any exhibitable masterpieces. But hey, who cares?
May be someday (which can be 10 years, 20 years or even more later) I’ll be standing alone in my own studio with a sturdy and reliable easel and a huge palette and an ample supply of paints (Van Gogh’s Artist Colour please, want to upgrade from Daler-Rowney haha =D), nice canvas and with sun rays coming through the window, some classical music behind and painting some scene from Tuscany which (by then) I would have visited.
And perhaps… (well, can’t help wishing) I would already have owned a gallery (personal one will do, I don’t need the commercial one).
That is what I can call A Bliss.
But for now, I just want to say something: “Rhea!! Wake up!!”
Sigh… but dreaming is not a sin, right?
PS: What’s your dream? Please do share =)
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Well....I'm not very sure of the detail of my dream lol
I just want to be happy doing what I do. Sounds old fashioned eh?
^^"
Of course dreaming is not a sin. Dream and hope keep us alive (kata org sih) ... cieh cieh. Hehehehe...
My own dream? Ada lah pastinya cuman malu ah. Public space gini :p *Jadi kamu ngapain, Astrid ninggalin comment tapi ga ngejawab pertanyaan? heheheh...* Sori Rhe, gatel pengen comment nih hehehehe...
gatel? sini digaruk hihi =D weleh ada lho yang email gua telling her/his dream. jadi bukan di public space, A.. haha =D
i think, being a gemini, i'll change my dream easily. but at least this is always one of many and at this point of time, it's the strongest.
hahaha i have a mental list of dreams. tapi malu ah, public space ginih.
irma, as we've discussed... yes perhaps that's one geminian trait. well at least it suits both of us.
anyway irma... congrats again for your "decision" ahhahaha =D
ya sudahlah saya udah mau berangkat. to that teambuilding activities. huaahh
Eh baru sadar, kita bertiga (gue, elo ama irma) gemini ya? Jadi Rhe, your dream is my dream also. Your personality traits are also mine. Wakakakak... asli serem banget :p.
waks... astrid.. beneran yah kita geminian semua? hihihi =D
kalo gua sama irma, suka "ketebak" banget orangnya hehe maksudnya kadang gua udah bisa nebak apa yang dia pikir, vice versa and something which is a bit different within us (as compared to others), we can find in each other.
ih ih jodoh ya? wuakakakkaka =D
ini ga nyambung seh tapi Yanti is an Aquarian and it's proven throughout history (haha ini hiperbola banget deh) that geminians and aquarians can get along well (both have air sign)
gak nyambung kan? hihi =)
btw A'a ga punya blog ya?
Yak Rhea, anda sukses membuat saya senyum-senyum sendiri di kantor *lagian sapa suru buka blog di kantor? kekekeeke*.
Iya Rhe... Gemini, Aquarius ama Libra.
Ini udah serasa chatting aja. Mana off topic pula. Hahahaha...
Blog? Hahaha... blom siap untuk mempublikasikan hidup gue di public space. Untuk ngeblog bukan kehidupan gue, errr... ga punya certain topic dan expertise buat dipamerin :p.
My dream : Yanti, kita sama aje.. being a mother.. kok kepengin banget, yang laen sih sampingan alias moonlighting alias ada boleh, ngga juga ga papa.. heheh...
Ngapain juga gue comment sekarang? udah basi banget deh..
ahahaha montje... baru kali ini mampir blog g yah?
duh lu sih ketauan banget ngimpinya jadi mama dan tai2 hihih.. good luck yah, kasi tau kalo udah kesampean
Hehehe.. Montje (harus dipanggil kakak ato apa yak?), sama ya? kyknya aku ngebayangin situasi jadi nyokap itu heavenly banget (tapi ga tau sih kalo nanti anaknya badung.. hahaha.. daku sih kecilnya diem.. tapi calon bapaknya kan mungkin tidak =P).
tapi tetep sih pengen jadi jurnalis.. well, at least nulis2 lah.. kmaren ini aja aku mesti bikin tugas poster bla3 untuk ujian, bikinnya juga tentang jurnali :P error dah.. cinta bener..
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