Thanks God I'm here now

It lifts my spirit up when a dear old-friend told me he/she actually reads my blog even though they have never left any comments (hence my innocence about it). And it lured me back to blogging again (just like what I am doing now).

I am typing it from my laptop, whom I always prefer than the massive and too-rugged PC. In addition to that, my office PC’s monitor beside me is full with opened folders, cmd.exe, opened programs, and other work-related stuffs. Kalo orang Jawa bilangnya sumpek. And some programs still don’t work *haiz*. Not mine though *cihuy*, I am just helping a colleague. About the one I mentioned last week, I’ve finished it on Tuesday. What started as mere assistance had turned to my curiousity. Ha!! I think I really love research. Leaving industry is one of the best decisions I’ve ever made in my life. Decided to swerve from mechatronics to computing comes next. And I’ll also be forever grateful to my current supervisor to grant me this job, without the director knowing that I am a Mechanical Engineering graduate doing software programming (he only knew it when I delivered my pre-confirmation presentation six months latter).

Muach muach *kisses for LIFE, for how beautiful it has been*

Three years ago, I lived day by day.
To get the things done for today, get the tasks delivered.
Ticked the to-do list in agenda.
Had my bank account a bit more swelling at the end of the month.

I felt like a driver taking a safe journey without really knowing which destination will be his.
Have the car ready, fuel full, obey the road rules.
Do right things, no speeding tickets in hand, no siren following you, no police chasing you.

“Where are you going?”, somebody may ask.
“Just see how this road will take me”, was my answer.

I was safe. I was secured.

But what’s the point if I just go in a roundabout?
Stay in this stagnancy?

Had I dreamt before?
Have I been so much ensconced in this safe and secured prevalence, that I just let it lead my way?

Had I dreamt before? And what was that?

I won’t belittle those working in industry, but I simply think I can’t grow if I stay there. I would get sick of this roundabout one day.

So something that had been buried by other things that life can offer resurfaced, and it started disturbing my equilibrium, in a positive way I must say.

After spending a long time pondering, taking a step forward and refraining some steps backward, eventually I eliminated “backward step” out from my dictionary. So although it took longer than what it may be, I am glad I am here now.

Some sacrifices indeed come into the picture, but I guess it will all be paid off when five years from now you’ll call me Dr. Liem *amen*. Don’t worry, it’s only for official use *bwahahahahahahaa*.

I am glad that I didn’t lose faith.
In those moment when I really felt I was in total darkness, when my way was blocked by this huge stone, and with these pebbles that tripped me down along the way, I still kept my (sometimes flagging) faith and belief.

And when you reach certain point, you will look back and think “Indeed everything will fall into place in the end, if you are faithful.”

Thousands of roses let me offer You,
For the life as it is now,
Excitement of what’s coming next,
and all the hope that comes by simply not knowing what You have in store for us