I am leaving my challengeful position
I will never deal with things that used to dread me most anymore
They will not knead myself to the max anymore
I will not squeeze my brain crazily to juice out solutions for problems which are beyond my knowledge anymore
The perfection of image quality will not bother me anymore.
I chose a more rosy path, the one closer to my dreams (well.... I think, and I wish)
But...
Do I lack perseverance?
Where is my determination?
Am I selfish to choose a more comfortable road?
A statement from the past:
The Secret of Life is to like what you have to do and not to do what you like.
Have I failed it?
I feel like a loser.
And yet I want to achieve my stellar dreams... which are still rather obscure until now.
Is it a mere disillusion?
Is what I THINK I would love deceiving my eyes?
Is there a turning back along the way?
Why and why and why?
Life is indeed full of mystery.....
The Pondering Thought of A Straddling and Bifurcating Soul
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Hi Sonic (I am still unsure about who you are =P)
I was grinning reading your second paragraph. Yes, as a massochist I think I will manage to get some difficulties surrounding me wherever I am going and whatever I am setting myself into...
Thanks for the comment!!!
Rhe, that statement from the past of ours :P is really like a double edged sword. During the past (read: high school and uni), it's an encouraging sentence. A sentence that able to encourage you when you're down. But, now after I'm here (read: in the wild wild world) that sentence seems to limit myself. More often than not, it's translated into 'all suffering leads you to your dream' as well said by Sonic.
So where are you going after this? Become a professional artist?
Hi Astrid =)
Thanks a lot for the comment. Mind you, you are not the only one from "our previous green sanctuary" that commented the same.
Yes, I fully agree that it was really effective and propelling you up during your school days.
Now, in this wild world that you said, it somehow holds us back.
MAYBE IT IS TIME TO BREAK FREE. Not to say that the statement is wrong. No. It was essential when we are equipping ourselves. Now we have learned how to fly, we can as well flap our wings in the vast deep azure sky....
Yes, A... I have changed.. not that drastically though =)
Thanks again..
Rhea
Dearest SONIC,
Hahahah I have had a hunch since your first comment on my page.
BUT, as assumption is the mother of all troubles, I'd rather spend some time waiting for the imminent evidence.
And yes, now your true identity has been revealed, by no other than your very self.
And BINGO!! My guess has been right...
Okay SONIC, see you around in VERY NEAR future!!
You are a very brave girl!!! As one of the sanur alumni, I'm very proud of you...
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